It's funny that I write this now.

You know I watch these anime cartoons, but one......one hits almost too close to home. it hits two things in my mind. first off.....why is it that I see those which I see, feel those who I feel, sense that which I sense.....and Know those things I know. why is it that a)certain people can do so, and b)why do we? now second thing that gets to me, Are those what I see, sense.....will they go after those whom are in my family, or those whom are connected to me in multiple ways.

Knowing what I experience, knowing what.......I ......must do......it brings me dread in the back of my mind. I know that I have to do....there is no mistake, and I know at least a few people understand.....when you are given something, one must use it for the good of those around you, and those precious..... in a sense, not only must you protect those whom are important, but you also must protect those who cannot.

On the approach of one of those...in some religious spheres...most holy of day where you give back to the earth, and other religions, the day where spirit power is at most pinnacle, and then to some....the most evil day, as specters, demons roam the earth.......I don't care to which on describes to, but I know in part of it, Christmas for me, in a partial view, a day for doing nothing, to give back, and to meditate on what is, and will be, though....knowing there is those whom will use it to bend the spirit world to their wish. it is those, that I must concentrate on not just me, but also to watch for others.


I know some of the responses I am going to get....I understand the worry. I know, boy do I know, you play with certain things, forces unknown fully, unseen to most, there is a possibility of loosing...especially when a lone wolf anymore. the time is coming, I have been feeling this for a long time, there used to be writing on my white board, that is now filled with TV schedules, pin-ups, invader zim magnets, school schedules, work info....big, bold letter...the end is truly near. I am not just saying end of the world, of the whole christian belief, but I also know about there is going to be a meta-physical end.


I no longer feel as though I am in correct phase, haven't felt so in....so very long......feeling of missing the feel of being in on real or the other....to be honest is making me feel....sad. a feeling I have been trying so long or avoid with anti-depressants....could be the withdrawal of the Prozac, but I doubt it.....it has been long enough that the Prozac is no longer in my system.......why am I out of phase....I feel like I am slipping between, and just do NOT have full mind in either.

I have a sense I know when things will end, and a feeling it is not far.....it is a surreal feeling.....knowing....when you know....you aren't scared....if yeah catch my idea...if not....ask I will try to explain. it is a feeling that you cannot mistake.




On the left, ROCK LEE - Konoha's model of hard work. On the right, his rival, Neji Hyuuga, talented rookie-genius of the Hyuuga Clan


There are more people out there realize that have just been frightened into keeping silent about it and ignoring it. Others have embraced it, but for the wrong reasons. That leaves people like me.

On the road

Smallest car in Europe? The same car Sophie drove in Da Vinci Code.


I’ve said it many times to my good friend r.mesina but I will say it again here so that my readers can see my point of view. Most if not all, of the traffic signs in the metropolis are placed on spot where traffic enforces love to congregate.You’ll be a hypocrite if you say you don’t know the reason for that – enforces’ congregation, that is “Unloading and loading” signs almost everywhere. Also, the “No Stopping Anytime” sign as visible as the “No Parking” Sign. But come to think of it. Most, if not all, of them are placed on areas where it is convenient for both commuters and bus jeepney drivers to go to.

Usually, the traffic signs are placed far away from where it is convenient for commuters to flag their public rides. Take the case of the overpass. Isn’t it convenient for commuters if “Loading / unloading” signs are placed near overpass? But no, you will find the signs a bit farther from an overpass, thus inconveniencing commuters as they need to still walk another mile or two from he stairs of an overpass.

Such signs also lure the bus /jeepney / taxi / revo & fx dribers to laod / unload their passengers at the foot of an over pass – right in front of the “ No loading / Unloading” Signs – to ease the inconvenience of their customers.

Most of the time, traffic enforces ignore violations. Again, if you don’t know the reason, you were born yesterday. Once in awhile, traffic enforcers enforce the law. Again, if you don’t know the reason, you were born yesterday. Anyway, corruption it is that makes traffic enforces to either ignore the violations or enforce the laws. Bottom-line is, the traffic signs are there yes, but they are placed on areas that are actually convenient for bus and any other public vehicles drivers’ passengers and traffic enforcers you know what I mean. It is only when a traffic enforcer is either in a bad mood or new in the beat – or his superior suddenly gets temperamental through a sudden apprehension. In short, corruption my dear is the other meaning of traffic sign in the metropolis.

Seasons of Celebrations

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How can agnostic and atheists thrive in the Philippines when our churches burst at the seams on Christmas Day and are jam-packed on all Sundays of the years?

For those who lack the imagination to conceive God, including the arrogant ones who dismiss His existence, the soil here is simply too arid and the environment demoralizing.

Most agnostic are boring and atheist are loners. To agnostics and atheist, there’s nothing to believe but disbelief. It’s like the mind hits dead end, an impossible scenario for Filipinos in whose veins run the charism (transcendent) of Christianity and the mysticism (magical) of orientals. Filipinos best understand the spirit of Christmas. The Philippines is the only country on earth where Christmas is an exuberance enjoyed longer than any feast.

If you are a Filipino visiting Europe, the strange experience you’ll encounter is the eerie feeling of empty churches in European cities. To think that it was Christianity that was mainly responsible for the creation of Europe’s culture starting at the dawn of the middle age. It was Catholicism that established great universities, promoted and patronized great work of arts; build great cathedrals and buildings exemplifying architectural and engineering excellence.

Today its thousands of Filipino expats who are filling those empty European churches, forming a congregation that resounds with prayers, songs, liturgies and worship. Perhaps the agnostics and atheists in Europe, who are aplenty, find churches filled with Filipinos an object of curiosity or derision. What they can’t see are God’s mysteries comprehensive only through faith, which Filipino have. For Filipinos God’s love is there inside the church in actually and continuity, which began in a cold cave in Bethlehem.

God the creator is also superb communicator. He knows our human nature to respond readily to ideas by using heart and mind.

Christmas is the miracle that only a religion of love can offer to mankind as fresh and appealing as it presented itself to all mankind two thousand years ago. Again and again the whole world celebrates Christmas as the universal symbol for peace and goodwill, exactly as the angels announced in Bethlehem.

“Peace on earth, good will to men” This call for universal peace and happiness is the perfect answer for man’s frustration on his earthy imperfection. We needed Jesus to be born so that we can free from the fear of unknown. We needed an authentic and original teacher to spare us the indignity of ignorance and the absurdity of errors caused by myths and superstitions of old, and the self-destructing philosophies of bourgeoisie opulence in our modern world.

The big bullies of atheism, Joseph Stalin and Mao Zedong, have long been dead and communism was a colossal failure as godless socioeconomic philosophy yet world peace is elusive as ever. Today our life’s safety is shattered by a new evil called global terrorism, a bizarre form of war triggered by racial hatred and religious bigotry victimizing innocent people.

Our need to keep going back to the babe in Bethlehem becomes more profound as the world plunges itself into a crisis, a crisis called by the late Pope John Paul II as the “culture of death.”

Contemporary technologies make a big breakthroughs one after the other, causing big changes in the way people live and think. Information technology empowers people in controlling their material destinies at the risk of compromising the spiritual and moral.

The digital age reveals a resurgence of egoism, individualism, and relativism, deadly sins of the intellect and the cause of disagreement with the moral law, the law that reflects God’s truth.

It is any wonder that after God gave us the gift of life, He then gave us a gift of love – a baby in the manger. Babies are our instinctive and instantaneous objects of love.

Filipino knows the kind of love. They can feel it and give it.

It’s never too late for agnostics and atheists to receive and give love. Like humble shepherds or wise Magis they can call on the same Jesus in Bethlehem now present in the Blessed Sacrament, the Eucharist. They are most welcome.

countdown

Get ready for Christmas 2006

Everyone has a birthday. This month, we will be celebrating the birthday of Jesus. No one really knows exactly when Jesus was born and there have been many speculations about the exact date of his birth. But what matter most is that he was born to Mary and Joseph so he could save us all. That’s why Christmas is a time of rejoicing, for giving and sharing and for loving one another as Jesus loves us.

With Christmas only five days away, it’s time to get ready. There is so much to look forward too. The four weeks before Christmas are called “Advent”,which comes from a Latin word meaning “arrival” or “to come”. Christmas is the much awaited season of the year. Filipinos loved it so much that you can hear Christmas carols being played over the radio as soon as the months ends on –ber, as in September, October, and November. This is also the busiest time of the year. This is the time when we get to visit relatives and friends, and enjoy traditional Christmas fare.

To me Christmas, it is a time to contemplate on how blessed one is throughout the year in spite of trials. It is also a time of forgiving, sharing and kindness towards family, officemates, strangers and most especially (gulp!) people you don’t like.