Friday, December 29, 2006

It's funny that I write this now.

You know I watch these anime cartoons, but hits almost too close to home. it hits two things in my mind. first off.....why is it that I see those which I see, feel those who I feel, sense that which I sense.....and Know those things I know. why is it that a)certain people can do so, and b)why do we? now second thing that gets to me, Are those what I see, sense.....will they go after those whom are in my family, or those whom are connected to me in multiple ways.

Knowing what I experience, knowing what.......I ......must brings me dread in the back of my mind. I know that I have to do....there is no mistake, and I know at least a few people understand.....when you are given something, one must use it for the good of those around you, and those precious..... in a sense, not only must you protect those whom are important, but you also must protect those who cannot.

On the approach of one of some religious spheres...most holy of day where you give back to the earth, and other religions, the day where spirit power is at most pinnacle, and then to some....the most evil day, as specters, demons roam the earth.......I don't care to which on describes to, but I know in part of it, Christmas for me, in a partial view, a day for doing nothing, to give back, and to meditate on what is, and will be, though....knowing there is those whom will use it to bend the spirit world to their wish. it is those, that I must concentrate on not just me, but also to watch for others.

I know some of the responses I am going to get....I understand the worry. I know, boy do I know, you play with certain things, forces unknown fully, unseen to most, there is a possibility of loosing...especially when a lone wolf anymore. the time is coming, I have been feeling this for a long time, there used to be writing on my white board, that is now filled with TV schedules, pin-ups, invader zim magnets, school schedules, work info....big, bold letter...the end is truly near. I am not just saying end of the world, of the whole christian belief, but I also know about there is going to be a meta-physical end.

I no longer feel as though I am in correct phase, haven't felt so very long......feeling of missing the feel of being in on real or the be honest is making me feel....sad. a feeling I have been trying so long or avoid with anti-depressants....could be the withdrawal of the Prozac, but I doubt has been long enough that the Prozac is no longer in my system.......why am I out of phase....I feel like I am slipping between, and just do NOT have full mind in either.

I have a sense I know when things will end, and a feeling it is not is a surreal feeling.....knowing....when you aren't scared....if yeah catch my idea...if not....ask I will try to explain. it is a feeling that you cannot mistake.

On the left, ROCK LEE - Konoha's model of hard work. On the right, his rival, Neji Hyuuga, talented rookie-genius of the Hyuuga Clan

There are more people out there realize that have just been frightened into keeping silent about it and ignoring it. Others have embraced it, but for the wrong reasons. That leaves people like me.

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

On the road

Smallest car in Europe? The same car Sophie drove in Da Vinci Code.

I’ve said it many times to my good friend r.mesina but I will say it again here so that my readers can see my point of view. Most if not all, of the traffic signs in the metropolis are placed on spot where traffic enforces love to congregate.You’ll be a hypocrite if you say you don’t know the reason for that – enforces’ congregation, that is “Unloading and loading” signs almost everywhere. Also, the “No Stopping Anytime” sign as visible as the “No Parking” Sign. But come to think of it. Most, if not all, of them are placed on areas where it is convenient for both commuters and bus jeepney drivers to go to.

Usually, the traffic signs are placed far away from where it is convenient for commuters to flag their public rides. Take the case of the overpass. Isn’t it convenient for commuters if “Loading / unloading” signs are placed near overpass? But no, you will find the signs a bit farther from an overpass, thus inconveniencing commuters as they need to still walk another mile or two from he stairs of an overpass.

Such signs also lure the bus /jeepney / taxi / revo & fx dribers to laod / unload their passengers at the foot of an over pass – right in front of the “ No loading / Unloading” Signs – to ease the inconvenience of their customers.

Most of the time, traffic enforces ignore violations. Again, if you don’t know the reason, you were born yesterday. Once in awhile, traffic enforcers enforce the law. Again, if you don’t know the reason, you were born yesterday. Anyway, corruption it is that makes traffic enforces to either ignore the violations or enforce the laws. Bottom-line is, the traffic signs are there yes, but they are placed on areas that are actually convenient for bus and any other public vehicles drivers’ passengers and traffic enforcers you know what I mean. It is only when a traffic enforcer is either in a bad mood or new in the beat – or his superior suddenly gets temperamental through a sudden apprehension. In short, corruption my dear is the other meaning of traffic sign in the metropolis.

Monday, December 25, 2006

Seasons of Celebrations

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How can agnostic and atheists thrive in the Philippines when our churches burst at the seams on Christmas Day and are jam-packed on all Sundays of the years?

For those who lack the imagination to conceive God, including the arrogant ones who dismiss His existence, the soil here is simply too arid and the environment demoralizing.

Most agnostic are boring and atheist are loners. To agnostics and atheist, there’s nothing to believe but disbelief. It’s like the mind hits dead end, an impossible scenario for Filipinos in whose veins run the charism (transcendent) of Christianity and the mysticism (magical) of orientals. Filipinos best understand the spirit of Christmas. The Philippines is the only country on earth where Christmas is an exuberance enjoyed longer than any feast.

If you are a Filipino visiting Europe, the strange experience you’ll encounter is the eerie feeling of empty churches in European cities. To think that it was Christianity that was mainly responsible for the creation of Europe’s culture starting at the dawn of the middle age. It was Catholicism that established great universities, promoted and patronized great work of arts; build great cathedrals and buildings exemplifying architectural and engineering excellence.

Today its thousands of Filipino expats who are filling those empty European churches, forming a congregation that resounds with prayers, songs, liturgies and worship. Perhaps the agnostics and atheists in Europe, who are aplenty, find churches filled with Filipinos an object of curiosity or derision. What they can’t see are God’s mysteries comprehensive only through faith, which Filipino have. For Filipinos God’s love is there inside the church in actually and continuity, which began in a cold cave in Bethlehem.

God the creator is also superb communicator. He knows our human nature to respond readily to ideas by using heart and mind.

Christmas is the miracle that only a religion of love can offer to mankind as fresh and appealing as it presented itself to all mankind two thousand years ago. Again and again the whole world celebrates Christmas as the universal symbol for peace and goodwill, exactly as the angels announced in Bethlehem.

“Peace on earth, good will to men” This call for universal peace and happiness is the perfect answer for man’s frustration on his earthy imperfection. We needed Jesus to be born so that we can free from the fear of unknown. We needed an authentic and original teacher to spare us the indignity of ignorance and the absurdity of errors caused by myths and superstitions of old, and the self-destructing philosophies of bourgeoisie opulence in our modern world.

The big bullies of atheism, Joseph Stalin and Mao Zedong, have long been dead and communism was a colossal failure as godless socioeconomic philosophy yet world peace is elusive as ever. Today our life’s safety is shattered by a new evil called global terrorism, a bizarre form of war triggered by racial hatred and religious bigotry victimizing innocent people.

Our need to keep going back to the babe in Bethlehem becomes more profound as the world plunges itself into a crisis, a crisis called by the late Pope John Paul II as the “culture of death.”

Contemporary technologies make a big breakthroughs one after the other, causing big changes in the way people live and think. Information technology empowers people in controlling their material destinies at the risk of compromising the spiritual and moral.

The digital age reveals a resurgence of egoism, individualism, and relativism, deadly sins of the intellect and the cause of disagreement with the moral law, the law that reflects God’s truth.

It is any wonder that after God gave us the gift of life, He then gave us a gift of love – a baby in the manger. Babies are our instinctive and instantaneous objects of love.

Filipino knows the kind of love. They can feel it and give it.

It’s never too late for agnostics and atheists to receive and give love. Like humble shepherds or wise Magis they can call on the same Jesus in Bethlehem now present in the Blessed Sacrament, the Eucharist. They are most welcome.

Wednesday, December 20, 2006


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Get ready for Christmas 2006

Everyone has a birthday. This month, we will be celebrating the birthday of Jesus. No one really knows exactly when Jesus was born and there have been many speculations about the exact date of his birth. But what matter most is that he was born to Mary and Joseph so he could save us all. That’s why Christmas is a time of rejoicing, for giving and sharing and for loving one another as Jesus loves us.

With Christmas only five days away, it’s time to get ready. There is so much to look forward too. The four weeks before Christmas are called “Advent”,which comes from a Latin word meaning “arrival” or “to come”. Christmas is the much awaited season of the year. Filipinos loved it so much that you can hear Christmas carols being played over the radio as soon as the months ends on –ber, as in September, October, and November. This is also the busiest time of the year. This is the time when we get to visit relatives and friends, and enjoy traditional Christmas fare.

To me Christmas, it is a time to contemplate on how blessed one is throughout the year in spite of trials. It is also a time of forgiving, sharing and kindness towards family, officemates, strangers and most especially (gulp!) people you don’t like.

Person of the Year - Time Magazine

I can’t blog in Tagalog! Hahahaha. I feel so incompetent in using the language. So I’ll stick to the language of my choice–English. I think in it, it was the first language I learned, and it’s the best language to express my thoughts with.

I’ve been busy for the past few months due to my work. At long last I can rest na...and go back to my normal life in the office, as for me...back to my real world. It’s that time of the year again when you just have to do something new. We’re suckers for lists fortune 500’s wealthiest people in the world; the best dressed, worst dressed lists; surveys about ourselves and the list goes on and on. And now, here’s the upcoming cover story of Time Magazine about the“person of the year” . Going with the trend this year 2006 has open a lot of opportunities for more and much better featured of “social networking site” such as: Friendster, Myspace, Multiply, You Tube and others that continue competing to each others to attract more people to share something over the internet.

What makes these more interesting is that you can sense the sincerity of everyone to share: be it a personal tidbit, or his opinion on a bit of news. When I started joining social online networks, I learned that being considerate of others will make more fun. You have to maintain a sense of diplomacy in your post, and that I am part of a global community after all.

Although the Internet can be a scary place indeed and joining social online networks is one of the ways to open up ourselves to the rest of the online community. But how much of yourself you would like to share is really up to you. You have control over that, nobody else. We interact with people everyday and the social online networks is simply an extension of this interaction.

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Cost –Reduction

“I keep my ideas because in spite of everything I still believe that people are really good at heart. I simply can’t build up my hopes on a foundation consisting of confusion, misery and death. I can feel the suffering of millions, and yet, if I look up into the heavens, I think that it will come right, that this cruelty too will end, and that peace and tranquility will return again.” (Anne Frank)

“Life is an adventure in forgiveness.” (Norman Cousins, Human Options)

“Jesus said that we would have no enemies nor that there never would be a threat. There is no lack of realism here. Jesus offers us a new way to deal with our enemies, a different way of responding that has the potential to break the endless cycle of retaliation that now threatens us all with ultimate violence.” (Jim Walls)

Now, let us tackle the most important and interesting about our life – how to handle your detractors. The first thing to do is to identify him, her or them. You can best deal with the devil you know than the devil you don’t know. Then, you can devise a personalized approach at dealing with each type.

I will advise you not to attack your detractors head-on. That is counterproductive. Some are just plain nuisance – you can simply ignore them. Others just need attention – give them importance by enlisting them to join in your efforts. You may organize a team of “cheapskates” (call it by another name, perhaps “cost-reduction committee – to paraphrase my entry subject) and enroll all your detractors and make them champions in their own areas. Encourage others to acknowledge the effort of this group, until cost reduction becomes a way of life in your organization. This way, you turn your enemies into allies and you develop a more cost conscious, albeit competitive, organization.

Sunday, December 17, 2006


Your Hidden Talent

You're super sensitive and easily able to understand situations.
You tend to solve complex problems in a flash, without needing a lot of facts.
Decision making is easy for you. You have killer intuition.
The right path is always clear, and you're a bit of a visionary.

Your Job Dissatisfaction Level is 40%

Your job is not bad, but it's probably not a long term thing.
You're just not happy enough to stick around for too long...
And there's little that can change how you feel.
Start looking around for other options, but only quit for something really good!

You Are 64% Intuitive

You are a very intuitive person. And luckily, your intuition is normally right.
You're wise enough to know that relying on intuition alone can be dangerous.
When your intuition seems really off, you tend to ignore it - and look at the facts instead.

You Are Pretty Logical

You're a bit of a wizard when it comes to logic
While you don't have perfect logic, you logic is pretty darn good
Keep at it - you've got a lot of natural talent in this area!

Your Stress Level is: 54%

You are somewhat prone to stress, especially when life gets hard.
When things are good, you resist stressing over little problems.
But when things are difficult, you tend to freak out and find it hard to calm down.

Your Luck Quotient: 82%

You have an extremely high luck quotient.
Not only do you consider yourself lucky, probably everyone you know does too.
But you're smart enough to know that you've mostly made your own luck.
By being positive, open, and flexible, a lot of luck has come your way!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is high. You can't resist desire and lust.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Bones For Hungry Dogs

The Webster dictionary defines bonuses as monies paid on top of someone’s normal compensation plan.
As far as my department is concerned, our net income to date is more or less the same as that of January to October last year. At glance, this may not seem much. However, a close examination of the company’s financial statement tell us that these earnings were made despite the fact that our present monthly provision for possible account losses is 5% ( 50,000) compare to 0.1% ( 1,000) last year ( for every advertisement / media research release). The department is very much aware of the purpose. This would not have been possible if not for the collective efforts of the staff.
I know that it is a management prerogative, in the exercise of its business judgment, to grant a bonus to its employees. And I believe department staff deserves it in recognition of their industry, loyalty, excellent performance, good behavior, and exemplary deeds on beyond the call of duty. Sometimes, creative / media/research need to work at night and even on two in the morning including Saturdays and Sundays. Not to mention, that embracing the nature of our work has never been easy.
As saying goes; “you’ve got to give to get”. It’s as simple as that. The more resources and attention you give them, the more aesthetically pleasant they get. The same is true for the staff. The more you give them rewards, praise, feedback, attention, incentives, growth opportunities, the more they give dedication, hard work, positive attitude, and creativity, simply put motivation.
Presently we do have problems and flaws in our department. But we don’t give up. As time goes by, our portfolio will improve. As long as we make improvements, we will see positive results. They may not come overnight, but as they say, “Rome was not built in a day.”
We work hard. The bonus is a gift that springs from the generosity of the employer. We believe there is rhyme and reason to reward us.

Monday, December 11, 2006

If We Fall In Love - Princess Hours

There will be no ordinary days for you
If there is someone who cares like I do
You got no reason to be sad anymore
I'm always ready with a smile
With just one glimpse of you

You don't have to search no more
Coz I am someone
Who will love you for sure

So if we fall in-love
Maybe we'll sing this song as one
If we fall in-love
We can write a better song than this
If we fall in-love
We will have this melody in our heads
If we fall in-love
Anywhere with you would be a better place

You can watch sad movies
In a different light
Coz I will be right there beside you,
Hugging you oh so tight
Your hands will never feel
So cold and empty again
Coz I will keep on holding on
And won't let go

You don't have to search no more
Coz I am someone
Who will love you for sure

So if we fall in-love
Maybe we'll sing this song as one
If we fall in-love
We can write a better song than this
If we fall in-love
We will have this melody in our heads
If we fall in-love
Anywhere with you would be a better place

Feels so good when you're around
One smile from you make my days
Feel so right!

So if we fall in-love
Maybe we'll sing this song as one
If we fall in-love
We can write a better song than this
If we fall in-love
We will have this melody in our heads
If we fall in-love
Anywhere with you would be a better place

Sunday, December 10, 2006

hahaha..i know i should be sleeping na

O madaling araw na. Gising ka pa?, Naiwan ang isipang lumulutang sa hangin, tila hindi na mapawi ang pagmumuni-muni ukol sa mga bagay-bagay na hindi na kayang pabalikin. Ilang mga katanungan, pilit hinahanap ang kasagutan, iginuhit ang isang pangalan sa hangin. Ang hangin na lamang ang nakakaalam ng mga sikretong nais nang ibunyag ngunit isang salita mula sa aking bibig ay aking ikakamamatay. Pinagmasdan ang aking sarili sa salamin, tinanong ang aking sarili, kailan na nga ba nang huli kitang nakitang nakangiti? Kailan ang huling dampi ng halik sa iyong mga pisngi? Naalala mo pa ba ang kahapon nang kayo’y magkatabi? Noong gabing iyon na pilit mong ginigising ang sarili mo sa kasalukuyan. Kailan na nga ba ang huling hawak sa iyong mga kamay? Ang huling haplos niya sa nalalamigan mong katawan? Kailan na nga ba natapos ang lahat? Tila ang katapusan ay siya rin simula ng bago mong buhay!

Nakatulala sa kama na minsa’y kanyang nalapitan, napatingala sa kisame. Bakit ka pa gising? Sino ang iyong hinihintay? Sino ang iyong iniisip? Mga alaala ay iyong kalimutan dahil kahit kailan ito’y hindi na mababalikan. Napahiga sa malalambot na unan na unti-unting nalulunod sa mapapait na gunita – natitikman ang kaalatan ng mga sandaling akala mo’y magtatagal.

Bakit pa ako gising? Sino ang aking iniisip? Hindi na maintindihan ang mga ideyang lumalaban sa aking puso’t isipan. Alas dos na ng umaga, at maliwanag pa rin ang sindi ng aking ilaw. Ayan na, paparating na ang katotohan. Lumabas na sa kabilang kwarto, ang katotohanang pumipilit sa aking matulog – kalimutan ang nakaraan at salubungin ang kinabukasan na nag-iintay sa akin.

Ang katotohanang pumapalibot sa isipan ng aking mga iginagalang, tila sila nga ba ay tama? Dapat ko na nga ba kalimutan ang aking sarili? Gising pa ako. Pilit ko nang pinapatulog ang aking damdamin, balang araw ika’y makakalimot at ako’y isang imahe na lamang ng iyong pagkabigo ang pagkasaya. At ikaw ay isang imahe ng aking pagkatuklas sa salitang pagmamahal, tila pagmamahal nga ba?.

Ayan na, paparating na – kailangan ko nang matulog.

Thursday, December 7, 2006

Pangarap Lang by Yeng Constantino!!!

Pangarap kong makarating sa buwan at
Lumipad hanggang doon sa kalawakan
Nais kong humabol sa pag-ikot ng mundo
Sumabay sa awit ko

Sasakay ako sa aking pangarap
Basta't ang kasama ko'y ikaw, may liwanag

Sasakay ako sa aking pangarap
Hangga't ang laman ng puso ko'y ikaw, may liwanag

Awit ng Pangarap- [PDA Theme Song]



Since I have nothing extraordinary to write about, let me just...

Something really weird happened today.ang araw na ito ang totoo nakakawindang paano ba naman sila kuya JL at
ate CC ang dami tinatanong about saih & Psychsoc pakialam ko sa kanila.Basta itikom ang bibig at 'wag magsasalita.Pasalamat sila at hindi ako war freak. GAAAAAHHHH...Here's a sweet truth: Someday, someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone ba masasabi ko dun sealed my lips.
Usapang picture tayo check nyo etoh kuya D of hangad pic Sinong masaya, SINO?!

Delight yourself in the goodness of the Lord,and He will give you the desires of your heart. - Psalm 37:4

I've decided on a closure,tapos na yun I know na windang talaga yun. But what I do know is that I have finally left everything to His will, that I have entrusted to Him the future, and that I have finally lifted up to Him whatever there is to anticipate. And so I promised that after that 2004 net freak event, there will be no more worries and fears. I am bracing myself for the worst but I will never give up on believing that somehow, someday I will triumph--that somehow, someday I will live my every dream.

Prayer is a lifestyle. Prayer is not something you rely on only when you need or want something. In prayer, you should not expect that He will grant your every plea. When you pray for something, you should trust His wisdom because He knows what's best. He gives you what you need, not what you want. Should that thing you want bring you harm or change you in a way that will detach you from Him, He will not give it to you. He will not let you go astray.

The pain is over now. He has healed me.(The case of Saih is a different story, at labas ako doon.)

I live each day according to His will. Each day will become an adventure, an opportunity for great feats, a privilege to be a blessing to others, and an offering to the only One whom my life should be lived for.

I delight myself in Your goodness, Lord, and I lift everything up to Your great hands.